Whenever I feel like this. There has always been two albums I have always turned to so that I can keep a clear head.

The Devil & God are Raging Inside Me - Brand New

808’s & Heartbreaks - Kanye West

One has the exact words I always need to hear. The other was written during the darkest time of a persons life. Both are filled with more emotion then most people would ever feel. 

I am sick. And it freaking sucks. Actually my sickness is self inflicted and I had no clue. So I overdosed on accident. For about 2 months I have been taking 150mg of sleeping aids every night. Some nights even more. Yeah I know, stupid. I thought I was smart enough to believe Wikipedia and I would be fine, but…… I was wrong. It finally caught up to me. Last week, I noticed that there was a lot of blood in my urine so I thought, ‘fuck I am getting kidney stones again.’ Well… it was actually my kidneys starting to fail. I found this out last night at the ER. I was also extremely dehydrated because the sleep aids which are OTC also increase the amount of water your system must intake. So I have been extremely dehydrated. Since I had this past week off of work, it was about 2x as bad. One more night of taking those things and I could of been dead. I got really lucky. I thought I could take an increased amount because of my body developing a natural immunity. Now I am detoxing my body with as much water as possible hoping that my body will kick back into shape. 

Oh yeah, I also was told that pot could of been a good thing because it constantly increases my appetite and want for liquids. So thanks to smoking everyday, I am alive for just another. Fuckyeahcannabis. Time to roll a joint.

I never thought I would be in a clan in a video game. But… the last 3 weeks have proven that I play a lot better with clan communication. Thus, our map labels are now a reality.

When it comes to honesty, there are two kinds of people in this world. One in which the truth is the most painful of things and l

This is what I have done so far with the week off of work.

- Painted a cartoon bear on an island with a bong.

- Took out the trash.

- Ruined my sleep schedule even more.

- Drank a lot of soda.

- Smoked a lot of pot.

Nothing else. 

 - In Syracuse, New York?

( It smells like berries covered with lemony freshness. )

(Source: nonicknamejosh)